ODD FUTURE
Your arms must be her arms
The body you stole into, clattering down
Always wearing an expression of completion
A kind of wearing down
The instrument, which was to become its tool
And now you're ready, saying, yet shouldn't it quite be
Only just ready, the sound of it, clattering down
Really breaking down, like had you been honest
Like everything would've sounded different
What you were saying it was in the beginning
When it was winter and snowing insanely
Like what great lives you would lead together
In the wind, in the snow, stopping, starting, at this point
Here, all the past is different
But without having really changed, as though one had been
living
All this time in a blue house only to randomly call it
yellow
One day, because you just feel like it's all of a sudden
It's yellow. And maybe it is yellow. And something else,
except these
These are things that prefer to be called among ones who had
been there
In the old way, and it's no use ignoring that the old can't
tolerate
The new way. It accepts the contemporary
Providing it home with its unlimiting context. But here we
are
As if all this hasn't been a hundred years in coming
And so makes your face an expression of wanting
That which couldn't have been and is now coming true
Is finally wanting who you are now
That snow is covering her face with a question
You, who sits with a sly grin
Brimming with old misdeeds? near an open window in Prague?
In Brussels?
Dusseldorf?
That the things that had happened previously, to unknown
people,
Found new people, through the long process of error and
retaliation
And happened again. It takes a long time to say
Anything given that your time has been an exercise
In this confusion, having been made a stranger of yourself
And so you seek refuge
In that deadness that feels like
In full armor. The springs are stranded along tubers
And what other flowers, what other mountains and sledding
--and this will change your life now?
Or what life you had led approached this error, this
cruelty?
There were living people? almost able to speak?
And her arms are cold, as a sky going by the window
In a curve, will seem cold?
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